Night Stream Dec 9

I've ordered food again...overate again...and want to lay in bed like a sad banana peel that is yet to find the trash receptacle.  It's the time of night when I can hear chants of children from down the street and a stranger leading them on a microphone.  I believe it is a Jesus camp of the sorts but I cannot help imagining a young Hitler regime.

You know I don't frequent this blog anymore.  After writing such a powerful peace last time I felt no urge to keep up that kind of quality material.  This blog was born from the very mature mind of my 18 year old self...so why make it something it's not?

But then, I got this keyboard.  You see,  a writer is a musician and they need tools to create their art.  One would think pfff a keyboard?  Really?  Are you going to make that as your excuse to why you will not write anymore?

Lemme tell you something about this keyboard.  Have you ever stroked a sensitive part of you body and was like  –this feels pretty good and then kept on going?  Well this keyboard is kind of like that.  Organic and mechanical, it takes each depression with a refined feel.  You are no longer typing on that mushy potato.  Typing up words on this creates the sense that you are putting physical effort to your work rather than transposing what you would write with pen and paper digitally.

And that is my short sales speech on mechanical keyboards.  An old technology that has resurfaced due to nerds like me and that shameless market of selling overpriced "gaming" technology to children.  I can get special branded o-rings for 20 dollars. O RINGS that cost fractions of a cent to manufacture for this keyboard.  Well, I guess there will always be people who think so microscopically instead of stepping out to look at the big picture.

What is the big picture though?  Is it that new flat screen you eagerly planned your whole Black Friday acquiring like it was a rare Pokemon that filled your brain with so much dopamine you might as well have been snorting coke off your Game-boy screen?  Everything of this nature is opinionated and impossible for me define for everyone.  So I'll just define for little ol' me.

 The big picture is so fucking big that if you stare at it too long your eyes will shift east and west respectively then circle around the earth before jumping between a couple of worm holes to send them out of sync for as long as the universe is.

I guess you can call that anxiety or a midlife crisis too.  While it is useful to step back and look at the entire game of RISK instead of your friend's overwhelming decision to mass troops in China, there needs to be some balance.  If you are too anal and try to laser gun the dust particles from your desk every 5 minutes people would look at that as a little obsessive.  However, if you let those dust particles build up because it is such a small aspect of your life you'll soon create the next dust bowl or more important for some -- not get laid.

So I guess today's self reflection is about balance.  You know, that things you tried to achieve when you thought Buddhism was cool and perfectly represented how you feel man.  But Buddhism isn't about taking acid and distancing yourself so far from reality that everything seems to make sense and then you get the grand idea that you will be able to implement it into your daily lifestyle only to realize you cannot be sober to achieve that kind of happiness because of how fucked up the world really is.  I never studied Buddhism in depth enough to preach it.  But balance is something anyone can learn to achieve.

Now you may be thinking.  Are overly balanced people boring?  Are they so content/discontent with everything that they become the grey blob that is injected into my veins when I stare at a vending machine at work so I don't give a shit about what falls through the trap door because all the choices are equally as shitty as the one next to it?  I don't think anyone is boring, though.  When I stand on the crowded subway I doubt everyone's mind is thinking:

"Subway subway subway oh they're cute subway stopped fuck the subway I hate the subway subway what's that smell subway vomit subway subway..."

...or maybe they are.  That may just be a special case.  I think it's safer to say we don't all think about poop while we are pooping on the toilet.  Unless you carry a poop diary which actually would be pretty cool.  I mean, a diary you only write in while you poo.

Anyway my brain is pooped.  Thanks for listening to my thoughts tonight.

Beastume (resume for the future)

There are times when I really do have things to talk about.  You know, about my super exciting life and all...which is only exciting if you are one of those people who jump for joy when Dunkin Donuts didn't squeeze an entire cow into your coffee.

In terms of endearing mundane experiences in food services: It is painful that people get upset when something is off from their general expectations.

A good menu generally has a collective of adjectives some Johnny-pencil-pusher aligned in Adobe inDesign or like software because Microsoft Word is for your weak.  All of you who put "proficient in Word" in your list of skills is like saying, "I can breathe, and poop at the same time".

And yes, I intended that to be an outdoor toilet.

After watching various videos of CES 2014 (If you don't know what that is, it's an electronic showroom for innovative and futuristic technologies) tomorrows technology has been harkening to a different drum.  One that rapidly evolves and grows with traditions are built upon sand castles.

Let's tip-toe to the past when we had to learn cursive.  All those damn cursive exercises cramping your poor undeveloped muscles and made writing a pain in the ass.  They all looked similar, or didn't make sense at all.  Only time you saw cursive in use was your teachers pseudo cursive comments like GREAT! or AWESOME! on your school papers.  I was lucky to relive this pain my junior year of college when I was studying Japanese.   ひらがな　カタカナ　 難しい. Under the dictatorship of the strictest 101 class I've ever had, stroke order hash that, flick this, dot there, cross here repeatrepeatrepeat I realized Kanji blew cursive out of the water in terms of complexity.

If we fast forward to today,  what we were exposed in grade school seems pale in comparison to the abundance of technological advancements. I remember when texting was first introduced to the masses.  I sent 6 texts on my first phone.  They cost me 50 cents each.  Now my phone can take videos of my dog's swag and has more abilities than my Windows 95.  I still miss the good old AIM though.  That running yellow man connected friends you wouldn't normally call.

Was that running man the start of isolation though?  In High School people used to get asked out via text, broken up with a text, and had blood from their hearts splattered on the send button. As generations of kids start to grow into awareness they plant their faces on smart phone screens. Social media governs who is popular or not.  People are so immersed in the digital world that it has adapted into our lives with online dating, porn, shopping, and awesome blogs like this one.

But is it too much?  Is it taking away form "human" interaction and experience? Are we too reliant?  Is some Terminator-Matrix shit about to go down? Or is it just part of evolution?

Where do you stand?